Here it comes, I feel it, that sensation, anxiousness, I am fighting for a breath, a chance to be happy, to be free.
ahhh, I had him right where I wanted him. Why did he have to join Toastmasters, I had him, He loved that anxious feeling, bouncing off the walls, he did not realize that he was procrastinating. His ego blew up others perceived him as arrogant. Sure, he read lots, however, it was of anxiousness. It was not calm and collective, he was not able to keep a positive state that is until...
whoa, where did those angry words come from, why is there this dark cloud hanging over me. What is that feeling that causes me to struggle, wait, did someone just talk through me, is that Guido I feel coming out to play.
For those who don't know, Guido, is my demon monkey, he's the procrastination side of me. The one who stops me from moving up, some would say he's my alter ego, I say he's just my ego that comes out to keep me off track...
That's enough out of you, this guy all he does is blame, he's the one who does not commit, and so what if I give him a little boost, so he can move forward. If it was not for me he'd sit and dwell on how he's not good enough. And do you know what he isn't. He won't succeed. So I give him a little euphoria to keep him happy. What's the harm in that I ask you?
Will you listen to him, telling me I am not capable, commitment, that may be an issue, maybe it's just that i cannot stand holding still. I am learning though, it's like Zig Ziglar sais "If you do the things you ought to do today; then there will be a day when you can do the things you want to do when you want to do them."
Do you know that feeling where you know what you have to do but things keep getting in your way, when your list of prioritize just keep getting bigger and never seem to go away. Are people around you telling you to focus on just one thing, but they all need to be done. That feeling of a weight on your shoulders that keeps you pinned down. Did you know your demon monkey causes that? that it's job. To keep our muse quiet so that we stay with what's familiar, so that we stay in our comfort zone.
I for one refuse to listen I am fighting back, as positively as possible, I will keep learning, I will keep moving forward...
Not if I have anything to do with it; are you not tired yet; go to bed. See he usually listens, he feels tired, he goes to bed, planning on finishing tomorrow. The key however is to start, to start each day because for one; tomorrow never comes and for two I have got a whole list of obstacles for him tomorrow.
My demon monkey Guido loves to apply pressure, pressure causes procrastination by providing distractions. One way to beat Guido here is to be focused, have a strong commitment a set of short, medium, and long term goals. When you are studying make sure you are centered this will ensure that you don't have to read or listen 100 times to get the message. Another way our demon monkey's get us; is when we enter the realm of negativity; this is there playground. This could be negative talk, arrogance, cynicism, or blaming others; Again negativity can mean different things to different people. A trick that I learned is to wear an elastic band when you have a negative thought, simply snap it, you will quickly learn to think only positive thoughts. If you find yourself saying I SHOULD simply change it to I WILL. I HAVE to switches too I CHOOSE too and yeah but! Well get rid of that one completely switch to Jeffrey Gitomer's patented YES! attitude. So this one has me all figured out; pretty soon there will be no more Guido, I am not ready for demon monkey heaven, any of you need a spare, no, I guess not. The problem isn't only you, it's the books, videos, internet, and it's cheap. Did you know for a few dollars in late one can get a great education at the public library. Oh well I still have one trick up my sleeve, and that's arrogance, I'll just wait till there's a few more dollars in his pocket and his head swells a bit. thank you.
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